Happy Anniversary

9 years married as of yesterday, and what did we get for ourselves...hubby had food poisoning and i got a headache. maybe next year we can get the date/hotel room we've been wanting.
i have to start trying to keep myself pulled together Sept 16th will be the first anniversary of mom's passing and i dread it. i shut down after she died and it affected my marriage and life. i'm trying to keep from doing it again but i'm lost without her here. the shit happening in my fathers house wouldnt be happening if she was alive. then again my idiot brother would have never been able to pull the wounded child act. its not going well since me and our other brother have experience living with him too so me and my family have to move out of a place we were wanted the most to keep our sanity

Time to revamp

i started this blog years ago so i could talk about my life and kids. well i'm taking a step in another direction. I'm going to rediscover me, my 30th birthday is approaching and i dont know who i am. it's time i found me and brought that person to the surface instead of the unsure being that i am.
i want to be able to wear a pair of heels and a dress and not feel like i'm just playing dress up i want to feel like a grown woman and look the part.

so to take a cue from some inspiring blogs The Bitch is gonna come out!